Visiting Brody in the NICU

I couldn't wait to get into the NICU to see Brody. My first attempt was the next morning after the delivery. I was feeling great and thought I was going to be able to do it. I got up out of bed and headed for the door. I only made it to the bathroom before I started feeling dizzy and like I was going to be sick. Sure enough I couldn't go any further. I got sick, felt horrible and had to get back in bed. A few hours later I wanted to try again. I got up felt a little dizy but wanted to try anyway. Once again I got to the door and ended up getting sick again. I actually felt better after I got sick so I kept going. I was on a mission to see my baby. I wanted to touch him and kiss him and talk to him. When I first got into the NICU I was a little nervous. He was covered in tubes and wires. His IV had leaked blood all over the place and they were cleaning him up. Not exactly what I wanted to see BUT once they were done he looked a lot better.

Brody in SCN

These pictures are all I have seen of Brody since the OR. I still can't sit up or stand up without getting sick. Mike went into the SCN and took some pictures for me. He looks so healthy to me. He is so much bigger than Jackson. It is breaking my heart that I can't hug and kiss him. I want to hold him and snuggle him and tell him he will be ok. As sad as I am that I can't be with him I know I will be able to tomorrow. Say some prayers that he gets stronger overnight. XOXO Mommy loves you!

Meeting Baby Jackson

I could not wait to get my hands on him. It felt like I had been waiting in the recovery room forever waiting to see him. Finally I get my hands on his tiny little body. I was shocked. He was so tiny.

His little face so so soft and sqooshy! I couldn't stop kissing him. He is a perfect little man. He already holds his little head up and looks all around. He is fiesty and strong. He reminds me a lot of Bella as a baby.
Mike and I looking at our new baby boy. He is so perfect. He doesn't look like a newborn. He looks like a normal baby just really small. He is so cute. I look aweful in this picture but I love this moment so much.
Time for work already. The nurse came in and said we needed to try and feed him. I am trying the breastfeeding thing again. Not sure how it will go but so far today it went well. I only have Jackson so we will see how it goes once I add Brody to the list. Right now I will pump for Brody until he is our of the SCN.

When I was finished Mike took some time to hold him. He is such a good Daddy. I am very lucky.

Finally everyone else gets a chance to see and hold him. Jen grabbed him right away and gave him to my mom to hold which I know killed her.

Jen get her chance finally. I think it was love at first sight. He is named after her son and looks like he could be one of hers. She is the best Aunty ever and I know these boys will have so much of her attention.

Jen finally hands him off to my Aunt Patti.

Jen, my Mom and Patti stayed for quite a while. The hospital is being really strict about visitors so I am not sure who will be able to come. This H1N1 thing is really scary. I am so glad Jen, Mom and Patti were able to be here. They are all so helpful in different ways. I am very lucky. My mom is staying at our house to help with Bella and Carter while I am in the hospital. Their are only a few days of school before Christmas break. What perfect timing. Hope we make it home for Christmas.

Our Time at the Hospital

MY HOSPITAL ROOM

OUR FIRST NIGHT

We only had Jackson. Brody was in the NICU.

JACKSON

BRODY

Pictures Mike took of Brody so I could see what he looked like. I was so sad

to see him all hooked up to tubes and wires. He has such a sweet little face. I

can't wait to get my hands on him.

JACKSON VISITS BRODY IN NICU

This was the first time Mike took Jackson into visit Brody.

VISITORS

We couldn't have too many visitors because of the threat of H1N1. People had to listen to a long message before entering the maternity unit. Then they had to go to the nurses desk for a check-up and get a bracelet. This is why Bella and Carter didn't come up. They both had runny noses and we didn't want to take any chances with the babies. Jen spent a lot fo time with me as well as Mike. My mom was with Bella and Carter so she had to limit her visits. We had a huge snowstorm the night I had the babies so that kept it pretty quiet at the hospital.

NUNNY

AUNTY LIZZY

NAMPA

GRANDPA